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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/7/2008 8:27:12 PM
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Pengie
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Hi Pengie, hmmm that link is empty.
The albums are there. They are listed on the left hand side.
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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/8/2008 6:56:53 AM
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Hi everybody!
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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/8/2008 6:31:50 PM
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Pengie, the photo is great
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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/8/2008 10:25:10 PM
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In Marsha's thread, we were talking about our childhood toys. I was saying that I remember having a toy penguin, named Pengie.
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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/8/2008 11:20:53 PM
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Hi Mike, Pengie, Marsha & Trish!
Pengie, I read in Maggie's thread that you'd been really sick. I'm so sorry to hear that . Are you better today? Were you able to make it to the doctor's? I too am glad your hubby stayed home to help you out.
Marsha & Trish, I've sorely neglected posting in you guys' thread lately, but please know I do read. I enjoyed the discussion in your thread, Marsha, about the old toys -- and all over Sam I Am  . . . love those Dr. Suess books!
Trish, I see you retired early tonight. I know it's hard when you're up having fun, and especially since you don't feel good so much of the time, but I do pray it helps your overall health, and I think it will.
I had a frustrating day . . trying to find things online, trying to place an order, being thwarted by petty things going wrong on a website that should be set up better. I'm glad it's over. Maybe tomorrow I'll get off to a better start.
We're in a week long, community, tent revival, and I'm enjoying that. Tonight's service was really short. A different church takes the service each night. Our church will have Friday night's service. I'm looking forward to that one.
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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/8/2008 11:51:24 PM
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How neat. I wish there would be a good revival around here. I'd love to go to one.
My mom is all wigged out about Ike. I understand, but really, we can't do anything about it, so if we get a lot of wind and rain, so be it. I'm not going to stress over it for a week. I guess I didn't inherit her worry gene.
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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/9/2008 12:00:30 AM
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LOL Beckey! My husband has actually scolded me before for NOT worrying more    . . . . I assured him I didn't need to cuz he did enough for both of us  . . . . I did just read on here tho, that Ike is on track to veer away from the Florida Keys, so doesn't that mean it would likely miss you too?? Truly, I hope it does! It woudln't be a good thing to go thru at all.
Last night's revival service was pretty good. Tonight's was just so-so. Not just a difference in the way we worship, tho there is that too, but also just so much shorter and quieter tonight. Maybe ppl were tired. I know I was. But it is interesting to see how the different church's worhip. It also helps me appreciate my church more, and our pastor. He's really very, very interesting . . the best I've heard so far. And our worship service is awesome. I can say this even tho we have the small church there. And because it's true. 
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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/9/2008 12:15:39 AM
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I did just read on here tho, that Ike is on track to veer away from the Florida Keys, so doesn't that mean it would likely miss you too?? Truly, I hope it does! It woudln't be a good thing to go thru at all.
I'm not on any coastline, but we are in South central TX....right where they say it is headed now. Of course, it can change, but if it does hit the TX coast and come up towards us, we could have flooding rain, high winds and possible tornados. Yay. I'm not going to worry until it is more certain, and even then, I'd rather pray than worry.
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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/9/2008 12:47:37 AM
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Pengie, I read in Maggie's thread that you'd been really sick. I'm so sorry to hear that . Are you better today? Were you able to make it to the doctor's? I too am glad your hubby stayed home to help you out.
Yes, I was very ill last week or so. I still feel tired and weak. I did make it to the dentist today. It was a 2 hr apt to finish a root canal. I was shaking by the end of the apt and had to wait a while before driving home.
I am losing stength by the day, now. It is alarming to me how much I can't do that I could do just a couple of months ago! I am very much home bound now.
We are still homeschooling our daughter this year. She is doing very well so far. She is a huge help to me during the day and does a lot to care for me. She really is carrying a huge load for one just 16 years old. I worry about her. . .
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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/9/2008 3:45:24 AM
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Something that came to mind tonight:
When I meditated on the word Guidance,
I kept seeing "dance" at the end of the word.
I remember reading that doing God's will is
a lot like dancing.
When two people try to lead, nothing feels right.
The movement doesn't flow with the music, and
everything is quite uncomfortable and jerky.
When one person realizes that, and lets the other
lead, both bodies begin to flow with the music.
One gives gentle cues, perhaps with a nudge to
the back or by pressing Lightly in one direction or
another. It's as if two become one body, moving
beautifully. The dance takes surrender, willingness,
and attentiveness from one person and gentle
guidance and skill from the other. My eyes drew
back to the word Guidance.
When I saw "G" : I thought of God, followed
by "u" and "i".
God, you, and I dance.
As I lowered my head, I became willing to trust that
I would get guidance about my life. Once again, I
became willing to let God lead.
My prayer for you today is that God's blessings and
mercies be upon you on this day and everyday. May
you abide in God as God abides in you. Dance
together with God, trusting God to lead and to guide
you through each season of your life.
And I Hope You Dance!!!!!!!!
When you are down to nothing...God is UP to something!
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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/9/2008 10:57:44 AM
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Pengie, this is absolutely beautiful! And something I desperately needed to hear. Did you write it?? What insight!
I've started to OA (Overeaters Anonymous) . . . the meetings -- 2 so far -- have been good, and what little material I've read has been good, but I'm just not committed. In fact, I don't seem to be committed to anything lately. Yesterday I spent some time trying to contact the gym to cancel my membership. I haven't succeeded in reaching them, which is strange in itself cuz there's always someone there. By this morning I have decided that maybe it was God thwarting my efforts, so I'm not going to make anymore calls. If the lady gets my message & calls back -- well, I'm just praying God will have his way there.
Your post, Pengie, and even the last 2 nights' sermons are reminding me how I once again have taken control of my life and leave very little room for God to do things for me  . . . I really could use some prayer about this.
Thank you for this nudge, Pengie.
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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/11/2008 1:14:28 PM
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{{{{{{{{{ZONDIE}}}}}}}}}} I'm missing you, tho I realize you have your hands quite full. I pray things are going better with your son.
{{{{{{{{{PENGIE}}}}}}}}}} you must still be having a rough time of it . . . please know I'll be praying.
{{{{{{{{{TRISH}}}}}}}}}}} according to what I read in your thread this morning, you have not had a good day. I pray you are getting some good rest, and will wake pain-free and refreshed.
{{{{{{{{{MARSHA}}}}}}}}}} It's so good to see you in here.
{{{{{{{{{BECKEY}}}}}}}}}} are you all taking cover from Ike? I know you said the other day that your mom was worried, and somehow I'd gotten the idea that Ike was headed in the other direction, so was assuming the danger was less. Now it seems it's headed right toward Texas . . . praying you all will take cover and stay safe!
Garrett & I have been sewing  . . yep, he actually let me get some done this morning, and while I was doing that he emptied one of my thread drawers . . . he was so funny -- he'd take the thread out, hold it close to his eye to inspect it (seemed more fascinated with the end of the spool rather than the color of thread), then he'd use both hands to lift it up and following the top of his head to the crown, he'd drop it behind him  . . . what a silly little nut.
When he had the whole drawer empty, he was going to go off to something else, so had to be 'coaxed' into picking them all back up . . . he actually did really good, tho, with a little encouragement and much cheering from me and himself
At one point he started fussing at something, and I looked down & saw that he had about 5 or 6 streams pf thread going every which way across his body!  . . I quickly cut them off him and set him free 
Now he's off to school and I'm done some Bible reading while eating my lunch. I came out here to get a different Bible, so think I'll go back and do a little more studying then to to get some more sewing done.
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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/12/2008 12:04:49 PM
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Certainly not dull at your home!
Thanks Leah.
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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/12/2008 3:01:37 PM
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(((((Leah)))))
We're gonna be fine. The storm is now headed more toward East Texas. We'll probably get some wind and rain, but nothing too terrible. I do have friends and relatives in the path, though. So I'm praying for their safety through the weekend.
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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/12/2008 3:07:19 PM
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Just wanted to say hello to a fellow Missouri resident! (I saw Show-Me State in your from line) I can't imagine growing up with 13 siblings, I only had one but I always wished for more
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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/12/2008 4:54:55 PM
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Hi Trish! No, it's seldom too dull here, tho sometimes it does get a little quiet (when Garrett's at school  ) . . . how are you feeling today?
Beckey! So good to hear from you and to know you're not in Ike's path . .. Lord Jesus, please keep your hand of protection on any and everyone in the path of this hurricane . . especially be with Beckey friends & relatives, guide everyone to higher ground keep them safe . . in the name of Jesus, Amen.
Raivyne, thanks for stopping by! Yep, Missouri born & bred . . . . wouldn't it be something to find out we're real close neighbors?? . . . I'm about 100 miles south of St Louis on I-44.
Didn't I just see your posts somewhere recently? That's not a name I'm likely to forget  . . . good to have you in here, anyway, and please come back. Yes, a huge family and lots of adventures
I've gotten one sewing order done for the day, and now I really need to finish my kitchen before Ginny gets here . . she's going to the tent revival with me tonight. Think we'll order pizza for supper 
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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/12/2008 5:43:57 PM
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Have a great time together, Linda and Ginny!
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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/13/2008 6:43:38 AM
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Still infected, Leah. I've had a viral infection, and I'm not sure if I have a bacterial infection now too. I'm on antibiotics now though.
It feels like we're back in winter at the moment. Spring has disappeared for a while.
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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/13/2008 8:34:45 AM
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Hi Linda, I just thought that I would pop in and say hi!
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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/13/2008 11:18:55 AM
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What have you got planned for today, Leah?
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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/14/2008 12:19:30 AM
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Rough, doesn't even begin to describe it. 
My husband has been flipping back and forth between moods again. 
We do not share the same room. In fact he sleeps downstaires. Has for 3-5 years. I have not been intimate or been undressed in front of him in ages. In that regard, we are strangers.
Well, last Wed night as I was undressed behind by clossed door changing for bed, my stranger of a husband burst in and started yelling at me whlie I stood there naked.  All I could do was stand there and feel ashamed and take his onslaught. "I HATE YOU!! He yelled, YOU SPENT 250$ LAST MONTH WITHOUT MY PERMISSION!! YOU ****!! and then he was gone. Leaving me paniced and stressed. 
The next morning I attempted to remind him of how I had indeed informed him of my spending, but he would hear no part of it, "I don't know if I'm coming home tonight ". he said. 
Well, he did come home, and when he arrived, I was ready for him.   I let him sit down and rest first, then I went over the spending charges again. I even offered to give up my dream - my puppy fund - to pay him back, but he had to let go all vindictiveness and grudges towards me and really help me make a go of our marriage or we should just call it quits for good.
He grumbled a bit because he wants to have leverage over me, but I told him he can't do that anymore. That stops if he passes or accepts the puppy fund. He didn't take the money (Yeah!) , but hasn't been exactly a ray of sunshine either.
Friday night I broke.   I could take no more. He just sat there as I told him how I never sleep at night because of the nightmares from the abuse he used to cause. I remember the broken bones and death threats vivedly every day. I am on loads of pills, that have made me gain wieght, but still the panic and anxiety attacks come all the time. Yet I never bother him with those aspects of my life. My spending is also a symptom of my post-traumatic-stress-disorder, which I would not have had I not endurered 16 yrs of abuse by my husband!
Funny how that symtom is the ony one he cares about! On, I went on a rant! I don't really think he listened.
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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/14/2008 12:21:36 AM
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Oh my Pengie! I am really at a loss for words to say!
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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/14/2008 1:14:14 AM
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I just can't imagine, Pengie; but I'm really glad you stood up to him and told him at least part of how you were feeling and what the years of abuse has done to you. He needs to ruminate a long time on what he's done to you, and what he continues to do when he freaks out over you spending money. I won't even go into the lack of intimate relations and what that has to feel like for you, but my goodness! for him to attack you when you were so vulnerable . . . . as Mike said, I'm at a loss for words to express what I'm feeling. I pray that he is forced to think about what you've said.
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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/14/2008 9:20:23 AM
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(((((((((((((((((PENGIE)))))))))))))))))))))))
I'm at a loss to know what to say to you, other than that I'm glad that you stood up for yourself to your husband over this. He needs to know what he's doing to you.
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RE: Leah's Stories! - 9/14/2008 4:59:05 PM
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I'm so sorry your husband is so abusive. Surely there is a way for you to leave him and have the financial and medical support you need. How can there be any emotional healing for you if the one who abused you so badly you have PTSS continues to live with and abuse you? Just because he no longer breaks your bones or threatens to kill you, doesn't mean that he's not being abusive. The way he is treating you is criminal.
I'm glad you stood up to him. Good for you! {{{{{{{Pengie}}}}}}
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